just a letter.

well.
the time has come to me finally,
when all is said and done.
i can't take back what i said,
but i don't regret any of it.i find it amusing,however,when people don't undestand my meaning and take my words the wrong way.
all i am is honest.
maybe i said things out of spite,
maybe i was just really tired.....but i hope you know that one day i will need you again,and i hope you understand that YOU alone will be the only one i can come to in the need.
i'm sorry for what i have done to you.
but you should know,this is the best way for you.
go on in your life,forget me and realize you are better off.
i hurt you so much and i'm sorry,soo sorry..
i know sorry is the damndest word,and never works...
but that's all i can say.
hopefully she makes you happy.
hopefully she is better to you than i ever was.
i betrayed you,i know it.
but you are pathetic.
all you are is sad,and it makes me sad to see it.
i hate feeling sad more than anything,
and you're not helping me when YOU are sad too.
it disgusts me.
i tried EVERYTHING to make you happy....
nothing i could do would work to your advantage.
hopefully you find something that makes your sadness disappear completely.

and i hope you realize someday you need help just as much as i do.
much love.

Lack of addressee makes it letter in the bottle... And I feel like I found it... Anyway... my heart is like after putting it into microwave and turning on max... so... I dont know where it goes... I know only from where it came... Letter not to me... letter swim away...

haha....

ehh.
yeahh..

sadness..is all ive known...
how do u expect me to be something more...
sadness..is all ive known...
and you saying all of that stuff doesnt help...
sadness..sadness..sadness..

but whats the point of a bff????
to be there in teh good n the badd..sadness and happiness..
im sorry im not a happy person.
but i guess you need happy people around.
go ahead n leave my sad self alone...to be more sadd..
to live sadd and die sadd..
because it seems all i am is a sadd person..nothing more.
sorry..sorry..sorry..
but sadness is all ive known.

well girly.
all i can say is..
you need to have fun.
i mean....REAL good fun.
like,
maybe going out and enjoying a night.
you're old enough,
go make some new friends.
i'm sorry you're soo sad all the time.
and i'm even MORE sorry i made it worse.
and i'm WAY EVEN MORE sorry that i couldn't help you at all.
i TRIED.
SOO hard.
then.....
well.
maybe i can try again.....someday.