i don't know if i am supposed to really write anything like i do,but i do anyway because i need to vent.
everyday that passes me it's harder to believe i'm still miserable.
i am in love with someone,but yet i cannot forget the one who stole my heart from me months and months ago.
i deeply love my boyfriend but yet i am not accepting reality.
i think i have so many problems with myself and i cannot hold them in anymore.
he told me he still wanted me back and that he wanted me to love him again...
but i had to tell him no because i have someone else that i love now.
he was disappointed in me and tried to tell me he didn't love me anymore afterall.
it hurt so much that he told me that and now i can't understand how to fix it.
i still love him,i always will....i just don't want him to hurt me again.
and i love someone else...someone that will NEVER hurt me.
hard to believe so strongly in one person but i do.
ahh....i don't know anymore.
i feel dead.
i feel like i have to be numb.
i don't think anymore.
i just do.
and i REALLY hope to God i am not pregnant.....